Unknown Source at 1:51 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Above all Power, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

"Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what you're worth

Crucified, Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
AND THOUGHT OF ME
ABOVE ALL"

-Above All, Hillsongs



I know it hasn't exactly been a smooth ride down the river journey of faith. The first 2 years were deceptively calm, a torrent of despair and "dis-repair" under. Tucked away in the corners of my heart, I didn't allow God's healing touch to come and do his magic. And now, the Devil has cruelly exploited my weaknesses within. My soul now sings, "Here comes the Pain". Yet The Lord my God, Eternal Father in heaven who cares, The One who fell and rose, Magnificent planner of my everyday.... He sings a different tune, "So you would come"

No matter the circumstances, you are still God, and there's no black hole to deep that your love won't pull me back. No matter the fiery agony, or the cold loneliness, or the aching guilt, I'm turning back to you. No more running away, no more purposeless struggles. I'm running to you with a purpose.

So what if I had made a mistakes? Everybody does. I now see that my mistakes in the past were there for a reason, God allowed me to hit a wall so that I would change direction. Unhealthy relationships, unsuppressed anger and temper, unrelenting self-pity. My old weaknesses led me to Jesus, and my other weaknesses are being called into the light even now. Thank God for trials and tribulations!

Yet thank God also for the many encouragements around, if only I choose to see. Truly what do I see? The backbone of a spiritual family there to provide a safe environment to be vulunerable.... The support and understanding of a cell leader...... The closer relationship with my own father..... and one other thing that brought joy, seeing somebody's blog,somebody who I thought will never go back to Jesus after denying Jesus; now spreading His love with testimonies and verses. Thank God for His unending love!







Thank you spiritual family, even those of you not in the picture.

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