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Finally done with revamping my old blogskin. All black with little teeny white words didnt go well for my tendency to let rip with the words. Upon scanning through my previous blogskin,I realize an extreme lack of pictures and photos and a overwhelming magnitude of tiny words that seemed to swim across the screen after I stared too much at it.

Hopefully this new skin will ease that problem,but I don't expect much since my blog's semi-sleeping til 2009. Til then... I'll make do =D

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Unknown Source at 1:28 PM

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Something struck me today. No I didnt get hurt,and no,that thing wasn't exactly very light. In fact,it was quite heavy. Impact quite big,and no I did not get hurt. What struck me was this: My Dad and my youngest brother are flying off to China for 2 weeks to meet my stepmother's family.

Yeah,its not like I did not know of that a few weeks before, but its only now that I come to realise what this means. Its a new beginning for my dad and our family. Things are finally moving on. And out of all the hurt and despair,lessons were learnt,hearts are being healed,issues that were so violently thrust out from the depths into painfully,glaring light,are being resolved.

I never knew how distant I was from my own family until I happened to talk to a friend. I said,"my family's flying off to China for 2 weeks man." And the reply," Wha...means freedom la."

In the past I would have jumped for joy and agreed at that statement. Freedom from constant nagging and all the other restrictions that come from parental supervision. But today,when I heard that,there was something like a jolt inside that made me realise how much Im gonna miss my family when they are away. And also how much I miss having a family that communicates freely and just has that "family" feeling.

The recent months saw me saying frequently," I never knew what a real family feels like" I regret that now. Cos if I never did know what one feels like,I wouldnt be longing for my family to get back to what it once was.

Through it all, one lesson was put very clear to me. There's a reason for all thats happening and that have. Out of trials, God leaves trails of wisdom that only are apparent with the benefit of hindsight. And its with hindsight now that I truly appreciate what family is,and how much I have not treasured one;my own earthly family bestowed to me by heaven.

I sure hope its not too late to change that.

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Unknown Source at 11:04 PM

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