Why do we love?

"Drawing Near"- My new fav book! Not just cos it accompanies me on those long and expensive bus/mrt journeys,but also cos it really helps me draw near. Haha,didn't use to be able to feel God's presence without the presence of music,but now even with all the hustle and bustle around me,i still can feel Him.. Thats really teaching me how "everywhere" He is. And the result of that? More confidence and conviction of the Lord.

I think thats becoming really important for me in this period,cos Im finding it tough to rise up to my challenge. How maintain my high I man? So tiring.. May have the want to do it,but the means to do it mustn't only come from me. Need help! I mean if i wanna do a half-half job of beating that challenge,i think i can pull it off.No problem. Only when got people around then talk,and when talk also talk for the sake of talking,not with any purpose in mind. Not exactly beating the whole challenge. =S Thats when the help I need come in. I need people to help me keep it up,need God's power to energise me. haha. Confidence and conviction in the Lord!

Anyway,that aside. Wasn't really keen to share all that but part of my challenge,I wanna ultimately be more expressive and open up,so might as well start by sharing through blog rather than talk. Today went for the job "interview". More like job 'psycho'. Went to this big SLM company,very big in the region. Very high potential,and high potential to earn big. Can earn 5 digit salary in just one year and forever. So much promise,so much comfort.

Yet i felt so awakward and uncomfortable there! Not cos of interacting with the people there,it was easy cos they couldnt wait to talk to me. But their values and goals are just somethings I cant accept. Their products and marketing strategies I can understand. But what motivates them i question... Somebody recently shared about being a Warrior Of Light,standing firm against wordly values. Well,if i decide to join this company,i foresee being covered by an avalanche of these wordly values. Today was also reading Drawing Near,and it stated something like being careful of feeding on wordly stuff like materialism else the appetite for a closer relationship to my Lord waning. Already,i see a friend who's into such a company,and boy is his motives seperated from mine. Certainly dont want that. The comfort,the money and the friends there I can forsake,but I cannot forsake the security I find in Christ.

OR

Cross or Cash?
I think I choose the Cross.