Why do we love?

Yes I'm back. Back from the struggle in my mind of information-overloading. Can u see the steam emitting from my ears? thats the fires of the struggle being doused by cool,refreshing waters of relaxation.

Been looking for a new blogskin,and Kaiyee obliged with my wants,popping out with a really cool skin. Haha. Now,if anybody can tell me how to add music inside..... "I don't wanna miss a thing" by Aerosmith should complement this skin. haha. With time on my hands,I guess I should go for proficiency courses on blogging le. Still,I cant spend too much time infront of the computer,so Im wary on getting too into blogging.

Just when the exams are over,U'd think that the stress levels will plummet and the PSI (Play-til-Siao indicator) will soar. But on the contary,my immediate reaction was 'wah..over le ar?' Quite lost after the exams ended.Not as if there's nothing to do,not that kind of sian feeling. Conversely,its that too many things to do until dunno how to go about starting it. The thing about these many things are the very nature of them. While I have been studying and been so into books,knowledge and memory,now these new tasks to do are a different sort. Planning,working,engaging inter-personally,absorbing non-academic stuff. Different genre la,don't really know how to put it. But its as if after mediating and drilling itself on how to swim for over 10 years,a frog has to learn how to fly,walk,and drive a car at the same time. In a few months time. Haha.

Ah well,enough about myself. Everyday nowadays my thoughts will drift to a dear friend of mine. Not in the obsessive way mind u,but in a way that she always reminds me of the things in my life. She's going through a really difficult period in her life now. Way more difficult than anything i have ever encountered. Yet she's still pushing for that scholarship! Among the top in the whole country man,and not in a small tiny country of 4 million people man! Haha. We told each other that whatever happens in our own lifes,it'd be a source of reminder how topsy turvy it can change in a moment,and how it never happens the way we want it to be. So we gotta brave through it and just come out even stronger. There're gonna be even more trying periods ahead. The thing is that there is no escape key to run away from these periods,so the only thing do-able is keep charging ahead. Like a torpedo which optical wires have been cut,it can only charge ahead in search of the final target to hit,no changing course,to turning back,and no destructing before achieving what needs to be done. Even when the current in the waters get too turbulent and the head currencies are bogging down the torp,it still glides ahead,sometimes not in a smooth manner,and sometimes at very slow speeds. Yet glide forward it does. And when it senses its target,it picks up speed for the kill and zooms straight towards the destination. By the time it hits its target,its speed is close to its maximum and the impact is the greatest.

Its the same in life isn't it. Wondering around when we have no guidance,just trying to fight our way forward and all the time thinking when is it going to be over and done. But when a target finally appears in our sight,there is a sort of guidance as to what path to take. And the motivation and adrenaline levels are pumped,and the whole journey is so much easier to undertake and complete in the biggest banging fashion possible! I can only pray that both my friend's and my lifes are that torpedo with a target already in its homing sensors,with the loud active pinging scaring the shit out of whatever is in our way and our bodies taking us to our desired destinations swiftly.

May our aim be true and God guide us like that target does.